Surrender and Freedom

Freedom has always come at a cost! You have to fight for freedom, and it has certainly never come by surrendering! History shows us that time after time. I recently watched Braveheart with a friend, and Scotland did not win their freedom by surrendering to England. It took many sacrificed lives to win that freedom.

Today God showed just how much freedom I have in surrendering to Him though. He has been burdening me for the last two weeks for sure, to stop fighting Him and to surrender my will to Him. I wouldn’t do it! It’s not that I didn’t really want to surrender to Him; it’s that I didn’t really want what surrendering might bring. I know God has been preparing me for years for the plan He has for my life. Although it wasn’t until Thursday, Sept 30,  that God finally broke me and brought me to a place where I literally came to tears and said “I give up, I give up! Lord I can’t fight anymore; it’s easier to surrender to You than keep fighting against You.” Instantaneously the burden I had been feeling was lifted off of me and I could physically feel its weight removed.

There is still a fear I feel, though I think it may be my own flesh not wanting to relinquish control. But I know now that I am right with God and I have been brought to a place where He can truly work in my life to accomplish what He has begun.